Perfectly Imperfect

It's not like this a new revelation, but something I've been thinking about lately is how imperfect my life is.  I'm not a perfect wife, friend, daughter, or sister.  My marriage isn't perfect.  My job isn't perfect.  My house, my finances, my clothes, my body...none of these things are perfect.  But you know what, I can choose to make those things perfect for me.  

The expectations I had for my life may have been unrealistic, or maybe they're still good goals to work towards, just on a different timeline.  I feel like I still have to strive every single day to be happy with myself and where I'm at in my life.  But one thing that I am certain of is that, over the years, I let a little bit of myself go in hopes of becoming a "better" person/wife/friend.  So recently, while jamming to my Katy Perry album, I stumbled upon her song, "Love Me."  I am in love with this song and as cheesy at it sounds, it really is helping me get back in touch with myself and trying to find the woman that Ryan fell in love with and that my friends know from when they first met me.

Love Me - Katy Perry

I lost myself in fear of losing you

I wish I didn't do, but I did

I lost my own, my own identity

Forgot that you picked me, for me

But now, I don't negotiate with insecurities

They always seem to get the best of me

I found I had to love myself, the way I want you to...

Love me, no more second guessing

No, there's no more questioning

I'll be the one defining who I'm gonna be

No concealing feelings, or changing seasonally

I'm gonna love myself, the way I want you to love me

Sometimes I wish my skin was a costume

That I could just unzip, and strip

But who I am is who I'm meant to be

And it's who you are in love, in love with

So now, I don't negotiate with insecurities

You're gonna have to take a back seat

I know I have to love myself, the way I want you to...

Love me, no more second guessing

No, there's no more questioning

I'll be the one defining who I'm gonna be

No concealing feelings, or changing seasonally

I'm gonna love myself, the way I want you to love me

No more standing in my own way

Let's get deeper, let's get closer

No more standing in my own way

(I want you to love me)

No more standing in my own way

Let's get deeper, let's get closer

No more standing in my own way

(I want you to love me)

No more second guessing

No, there's no more questioning

I'll be the one defining who I'm gonna be

No concealing my feelings, or changing seasonally

I'm gonna love myself, the way I want you to love me